Early this morning, around 5am i was driving back home after dropping Joel off into work. I discovered i was having almost like a debrief with myself in my mind about my life so far and how iv come to be. I was thinking about Joel and how we met, and how we would have crossed paths so many times in life for he had gone to high school with my brother, was friends with my step sister, knew my father and worked almost next door to where he worked and we both use to go out at the same places back in our day. Then it got me thinking of my past.. the things i experienced good and bad. Things i would have changed and would not have changed for the world. People i wish i never met and people i wish i stayed close to. People who i thought i loved then people who i came to not like at all. Past mistakes, past achievements.. opinions that i had then are different to what i have now. In fact, my whole outlook on life is different, and as i age, everything will still continue to change.
I've met some truly, wonderful people, gotten to them for who they are and who they are not and have become greatly apart of their lives and then in an instant, iv walked out.
I've made some whopping mistakes, things i look back on now and think "shit Alex, you really weren't all there were ya!"
With maturity my opinions on people and circumstances have changed drastically.
I've hurt people before, I'm sure and I'm also sure iv brought great happiness to some also.
But if i didn't go through all of these little stepping stones that life layed out for me, if i didn't play any of these cards i was dealt, i would not of reached where i am today and believe me, i am at a great height!
I probably would not have met Joel and in turn, would not be cradling the most beautiful, precious, happy little boy in the whole entire world, Lijey. Actually, you know what..? I still would have found Joel because that was simply destiny.
Life hey, you just gotta take it all as it comes. Good or bad. You win some, you lose some..
